Our son, Andrew E. Bennett, IV, was born today. My life as a Dad has begun on a whole new path. Having been a dad to a beautiful, smart and inquisitive little girl for the past few years has had its challenges but I took to them pretty easily. Tea Parties… Check. Enjoying pink… Check. Cuddling…. Check. To me a girl is easy because you just be the model for the man that you hope she winds up marrying some day and you keep away all suitors until the age for 35. :-). But seriously, Eva has been a real pleasure to be a Dad to. We have so much fun together and enjoy so many of the same things and have fun. But a son, having a son feels like I have a whole new set of responsibilities shape him into a good man when he grows up. Not that I don’t have the responsibility to shape Eva into a good woman, but it feels like a very different responsibility to me to raise a son.
I feel like I can finally breathe out after such a long time too, no not because I was dead set on having a son because I wasn’t. I didn’t think about it, that much. The most important thing to me was that the baby was born, healthy. My heart jumped up into my throat with every cough, pained look or ache from Allison from the moment we found out that she was pregnant to the moment that I heard Andrew cry for the first time. I knew in my heart that I’d be crushed if we ever suffered a loss like we did in 2009. So I steeled myself and kept from getting to excited, I stayed more worried than anything. It was how I tried to protect myself. My co-workers in my new position, some of them didn’t even know that my wife was pregnant. I didn’t want to have to explain should something go wrong.
You can imagine my joy at hearing Andrew’s first cries. My heart swelled to double in size to take in how much I love this baby boy. All the fears and worrying and waiting and anticipating melted away. I have a son. I have a healthy baby son. I have so much to teach him, but don’t worry, he’s already heard the name Optimus Prime once or twice. Raising a son is an entirely new adventure that Allison and I are on. I’m pretty sure though that with our love and guidance and the example that his sister, Eva will provide, he’s going to grow to be a man I can be proud of someday.
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